In which I am caught red-handed.
Accidental Christian: What the h*ck happened?
I am glad that Eddy is back. You will have to read his post (link above) to understand this one.
I should have known better than to invade his history. . . trust is important, and since I put that deposit on that apartment without telling him first (that I ended up not renting) trust has definitely been an issue between us.
When I stop to think about it, I am dumbfounded, shattered, and still can't quite grasp how much everything has changed over the last two years. We used to trust each other implicitly. I hate when things get broken.
I hate that we are growing apart. But for our own sanity, we need to grow apart. (sigh). We need space to be who we are, which, I guess, goes back to his needing a more private space in which to write.
If I had thought about it, I would not have looked simply because in the past, I have stumbled over stuff that I wish to this day that I had never found. I'd really rather just not know (I think). Maybe it is better to know. I don't know. I want to know what really is going on his head (I think). Maybe I don't want to know. I guess that I DO want to know where I stand. I know that he as as confused about all of this as I am.
The thought of him looking for someone to hook up with had never crossed my mind (until now). Holy Crap.
B
I am glad that Eddy is back. You will have to read his post (link above) to understand this one.
I should have known better than to invade his history. . . trust is important, and since I put that deposit on that apartment without telling him first (that I ended up not renting) trust has definitely been an issue between us.
When I stop to think about it, I am dumbfounded, shattered, and still can't quite grasp how much everything has changed over the last two years. We used to trust each other implicitly. I hate when things get broken.
I hate that we are growing apart. But for our own sanity, we need to grow apart. (sigh). We need space to be who we are, which, I guess, goes back to his needing a more private space in which to write.
If I had thought about it, I would not have looked simply because in the past, I have stumbled over stuff that I wish to this day that I had never found. I'd really rather just not know (I think). Maybe it is better to know. I don't know. I want to know what really is going on his head (I think). Maybe I don't want to know. I guess that I DO want to know where I stand. I know that he as as confused about all of this as I am.
The thought of him looking for someone to hook up with had never crossed my mind (until now). Holy Crap.
B
Labels: the gay thing
posted by Heidi at
5:52 PM
2 Comments:
B:
no wallowing.
just get on with it.
He who has never quite managed that says it's better for everybody that way...
yr
Troll
Don't you think that you should be telling that to HIM?
B
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