Friday, May 05, 2006

The Science of Dread

I just finished telling someone that I would rather make a decision now than wait to make sure that I make the right decision. And then ran across this article on the "science of dread". Part of it says, "Among people who volunteered to receive electric shocks, almost a third opted for a stronger zap if they could just get it over with, instead of having to wait." First of all, what kind of people volunteer to receive electric shocks? Really though, what I would give to have the rollercoaster just come to an end no matter where it stops. I am so ready to have the end end and the beginning begin. I thought I was ready, anyhow, last month when I put a deposit on an apartment and began making plans to move out. I guess I love my family no matter how screwy things are right now. Who knows what is out there? I need to make friends with myself a little more before I am ready to decide anything. I guess that this one can wait.

B

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Anonymous Anonymous said...

I feel you pain. As hard as it is, you can't just get it over with once and be done with it. Even moving out is not a one time decision. Whatever you decide, will be both something that has a continuous affect, and a decision you'll probably have to remake more than once.

Praying for you both.

Saturday, May 06, 2006 9:44:00 AM  
Blogger A Troll At Sea said...

Well, as you know, I am with you --

OH MY GOD--ANOTHER DROP!!!!!

Actually, I took my family on a roller-coaster in Denver, and they had a camera mounted just at one of the big drops so that as you exited, you saw your face. It was amazing: I was grinning from ear to ear, if tensely; my wife was squezing her eyes shut, and my kids looked like deer in the headlights. At the time I thought the amount they wanted for that picture was exorbitant, but what I wouldn't give to have it now!

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Troll

Monday, May 08, 2006 8:04:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Bea,

Sometimes, it's hard to be hundred percent sure about anything. I think we can only make what we feel is the best choice possible, and trust God that He'll be faithful to correct our course if we got it wrong.

I'm praying for you and your husband. God bless.

Grace.

Monday, May 08, 2006 3:30:00 PM  
Blogger OTRgirl said...

I don't share your specific life experiences, but I have a marriage where I've been waiting (and waiting and waiting) for God to change my husband's mind or body in order for us to have kids. Long story. The point being, the waiting is awful. I hate it. So, I hear you about wanting ending to end and the beginning to begin.

Also, your anger post was really good. I've noticed people don't do comments as often after long posts, but don't cut things short. That was good.

Monday, May 08, 2006 4:43:00 PM  

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