Saturday, May 27, 2006

The roller coaster from Hell.

Okay, so I ran into this online boggle addiction which has distracted me from posting. Actually, I have been trying to not think about "this gay thing" for the past few weeks, so I really haven't had much to say.

But now it feels like things are starting to bubble up. It is like I am sitting in the front of the rollercoaster. We are in the straight, slow spot, catching our breath, but looking at the hill ahead. Click, click, click. We are starting the climb to another hill. Will I hold on tight and close my eyes? Or throw my hands in the air and scream?




Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hang in there, Bea. I'm praying for you.

God bless!!

Wednesday, May 31, 2006 9:32:00 PM  
Blogger Restored Vows said...

Bea -

You sound like an amazing woman. I am surprised that I am leaving a comment as I am in a similar boat as your husband.

As far as myself, I am married x14 yrs, 2 kids, conservative Christian, and a professional social worker (most people don't even know what the DSM-IV is!).

Before we got married, I told my wife that I had same-sex attractions. I thought it would "go away" when I got married. It didn't.

My marriage is currently on the rocks. I am not very romantic and our love (sex) life is basically dead. Any advise for the romantically challenged?

I'd really like a wife's perspective on your thoughts and feelings. I am not out to my wife, but she knows something is up. I am SOOO backslidden from when we got married, and that is reflected by my own act of adultery with another man. It doesn't make it just is.

Please check out my blog. Leave a comment if so inclined.

Wednesday, June 07, 2006 10:02:00 AM  
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Sunday, June 11, 2006 6:31:00 PM  
Blogger eddie{F} said...


You are so courageous. I admire your strength and character. I know you may not feel this, and it may feel like a deep dark tunnel, but I want to assure you that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. It’s hard to decipher, but it’s coming …

much care

Sunday, June 11, 2006 6:32:00 PM  
Blogger cate said...

Thank you for the roller coaster post. I love your blog. I could have written that last paragraph about where I am on the rollercoaster. Can I deal with the fall? Funny thing is that I have been avoiding the plummet for years for the sake of not hurting others: family, gay husband, kids.

Tuesday, July 04, 2006 3:24:00 PM  

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