it was the 2-and-a-half-year reference - which he interpreted as "she's not okay that i am gay - what else is she not telling me" or something like that
i can see how it read it that way - but that is not what i meant - everything has been soooo uber-emotional since he cracked that closet door open
he's tired of me and his therapist telling him to accept himself.
okay . . . truce
we are both on edge
i had a complete melt-down last night as he told me that no one has ever accepted him . . . what about ME? my fantasy has been to be so nice as to make up for all of the hurts from his past - and logically . . . he has been with me longer than his family, so what is the problem? (i know that it doesn't work that way) until i said something, i was so angry that i was dizzy - it was kind of freaking me out
we are both crazy on edge
but we are both not used to being open about our emotions with each other - we went for actual years without fighting for the first few years of our marriage - i'm not exaggerating - i don't like to fight - what is the point? maybe i should just go back to that - or not.
Labels: the gay thing